I find I cant face maself anymore. I have no idea how did I become this. I've turned to someone whom I barely know. Everything is so ugly. The devil within me is definately growing, growing is something I cannot stop.

What turned me to do these this? What could be the possible reasons? I feel the need to self destruct. I feel like getting back to others. I want revenges. I want everything to be in ma way. I feel like Im an angry person everyday. I get agitated easily, people around me are suffering. Mood swings from time to time. I often vented out in some way. very bad ways. There's so many dark secrets I cant share. I am still suppressing. I have no idea how long would I be able to endure. I think Im suffocating. I think I am depressed.

I need to put a stop to these. I don't how. I must figure a way out. I must.. I must..