I traced back the past with every might I reserved.
Da gentleness ya had fer me has faded long ago.
I cant remr when is da last time ya praised me.
Da appreciation has ceased to become nitty gritty things that ya're picking on.
Da concern I once received, is being barred from da barrier of selfishness.
Clouded with uncertainties that made both of us bitter.
"Ya'll learn one day" is wad ya always say but failed to acknowledge wad I shld be learning.
We change nobody.
I then realized, our love has died even before attaining to da maturity stage.
Im cool, this is da phase I gotta go through.
men just dun get it
Sunday, November 18, 2007
After a fight, be it small or big. Maybe da best music to da ears could be "I love ya". Soothing and sweet. Best remedy for the bruised ego and shattered heart.
Just how many man outside knows this little trick?
Every time after a fight, I then realized da fight is redundent. No solution is needed, no cold war after that if he knows da trick.
Instead, he chose to aggravate da situation ba agitating me further.
No one's fault fer da fight. If there is, that's being tactless. And inflexibility is da middle name fer men.
twisted
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Yesterday night, I felt a tinge of sadness. I made a call to Jo hoping to pour some sorrows that ma heart could no longer hold. It has been a mistake from da start. Thou I didnt really voice out the issues, but Im glad enough to hear her support ova da phone. I still hope to salvage da bits of face I left with mimimal strength.
I miss Mr Bean's days. I miss Holland's crowd. I miss da fun and laughters I used to have. Now, I could only surrender to a routined life that lacks of colors I cant afford to give.
wise man said
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
Stepping in a relationship bound to get hurt.
When ya're being exploited in ya most vulnerable moment ba someone ya thought whom is closest to ya than anyone else in this world. All ya could feel is aches and aches and ACHES.
When the lies are being unfolded times and times again. It doesnt really matters whether those were small lies or big ones. To me, what's is the intention behind it?
There are so many things riskedgetting upset with. That is of course if ya're really ready to bungee yaself into a relationship. It takes so much more than vocal. What they say, sincerity, chemistry and responsibilities.
However, there are also different kinds of happiness ya getta taste like ya have never had.
Ma dad overheard the heated argument I had with bf. So he enlightened me with his words while sending me to bus stop. He made me see things in a different perspective.
Yeeyyy!
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
Down with two major. I could breathe again. Being vocal is not enough, things mentioned are not being heeded ba a grp member. This black sheep is incorrigible can!!
I think im gonna risk maself this sem. Gonna seek external help in wadeva I can. I just cant be bothered anymore.
Jo was telling me about our big plan. She sparks off with the idea in ma head but neva get to process and finally die in ma brain too. Im so anxious fer her to commence da opening. Soon, this blog might be a desert. Dry without entries. *wail*
Thursday, November 01, 2007
Bad day. Bad start. Bad omen. Damnnn.
rottencabbage.
The one your momma
always warns you about.