Better off alone. It makes things easier, alot easier. Im asking too much and being too demanding from time to time. Makes one hard to compromise. As trashy as it is, perhaps Im not ready. Maybe from the start that is.
Good times end ages ago, mundaneness sets in. Fights and disagreement follow next. Endless it is, makes me ponder over the choice I've made to Don months ago. I may be a wussy, not being able to withstand the cons of a relationship yet keep asking for the pros. I may be selfish, like he always say, not being able to stand in his position and think at times. I may be senseless, to sprout words that pricks unknowingly. But he didnt realized, I said that with intentions to spike knowing this deteriorate da situation. I want to be noticed, I need to be assured. Sitting on da edge and risk falling is simply intolerable. I used to have no qualms in handling such and now I failed badly. Perhaps Im just not ready. Maybe from the start that is.
P/S: Last night, I had a silly fall in ma bedroom. Da slip was harsh, and ma right elbow landed on da floor first. Resulted in hurt elbow. I think, that has somehow got to do with ma recent weight. Clumsiness comes along when ya've over dosage of food and get heavier. Damn! Ma butt was aching after late realization. Im sucha hopeless pathetic.
overview for da past 3 days
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
SundayWhen everyone is playing pranks on others during April's Fool, ma mum played a prank on our family 16 years ago. She gave birth to a lovely boy and it was a godsend. So instead of tricking ma mates, I usually spend ma 1st of April with Seth. This year, we had dinner on eve of his birthday at Ang Mo Kio. Don and I brought along our beau-s to add joy, da dinner was good, so was everyone's mood. Needless to say, we got him a watch for his present.
MondayOn da 2nd, I've finally touched manual car after so long. Da techniques was rusty, but regained back fast enough. I wasnt pleased with da instructor's attitude and complained to Jo, she encouraged me to retaliate if there's another chance. :) Met Kinki at Jurong point's Siam Kitchen for early dinner. We fulfilled both our stomach and catching up purpose. She is ever so sweet, passed me da overdued bday gifts.
TuesdayD's off day. It was also gene's bad day too. Seth gave sch a miss, so we sisters brought him together to our double movie date. Afterward was mahjong session at D's place with Eric. Luck's pretty bad, Don's worse. Granny was at our place tonight till Friday.