Im devasted. Extremely. Love handles getting broader and more arm rest space. Alot of comments on ma weight these days. Every one of it is like a knife stab right into ma heart. Bwahhh.... I just cant curb ma ever fantastic appetite, I just cant.
Sunflowers and cheesecakes
Broken promises and sweet surrenders
Lonely pain and tears of joy
Similarities and differences are always da cause
Searching, searching for the easy come and go feelings
Ya're da reminder of da painful mistake
Till one lets go then da other tries hard
It's always da case
Things happen for a reason
It's beta burn out than to fade away
In a game of love
A hopeful mind awaiting for a text from ya after ya had ya fun
What I received is a wishful thinking of no return
Promised no more arguments no more trantrums
In da hope fer beta days for us both
Things I have done, I done it all for ya
Yet ya not been recognizing ma credits
Priority, not to talk about it
Da amount ya gave me is as small as a sesame seed
I may deem as a fool
Giving out ma full
Nobody understand me like I do
Not asking for a return
Doin these for a reason
That is, to be appreciated
Ya and I have a role to play
Once da givings run out, Im left with none
I know that I gotta let ya go one day
highlights of past few days
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
I thought I almost lost Jo in the midst of our school break until last Saturday. She showed herself and Don and I agreed to meet her at Holland NYDC after werk.(Im hooked with NYDC now). We had a long overdued girls' night/talk. We hopped to Wala Wala for wine. D and Seth joined us the 3 overlaughed ladies. We walked out of the pub as soon as we finished da drinks and I blacked out unexpectedly and fell from a trip. Gaahhh, it wasnt da cause of alchohol thou.
Sunday ended quite badly. Ma pride was bruised in normal conversation. That night, I then realised da trust given was only a paper thin. Enough said.
Stayed at home with Don. It was da best time ever. We find joy tidying up our bedroom while sharing thoughts. A slow and ideal pace. Ma first time to Cafe Del Mear at night. A nice and cosy place to chill. An ideal hangout for friends. However I didnt really enjoyed last night. Perhaps, Im overly exhausted. Replenishing of much deprieved sleep is needed. Ahhh... now I know where ma super duper pimple came from.
I have recieved ma pay, da only thing to rejoice over. It sets me motivated to alot of things. Da wonders of money cant be underestimated, really.