School life has never been so fulfilling like today since year 3 started. It was hectic but Im starting to get da hang of it. Through da busy time, there's Daincy and Mel workin hand in hand. :) We had a successful presentation despite a small hiccup in the process. Debra's class went smoothly too.
Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright
But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink inIt's all over me
I'm lying here in the dark
I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot& all
I know is
You've got to give me everything
Nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right
All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?
Will ya see?
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Certain things are meant to say, while some has to keep to prevent unnecessary disputes. To bury da hatchet and feign ignorance after what ma ears took in is almost close to impossible. Despite being nonchalent and act like it's not gonna affect me, but somehow words is enough to make one's heart bleed profusely. Someone reminded me, "If ya want an outcome then fight it ya way, but if ya chose to settle it amicably then swallow ya pride." Does things always have to be this way?
It is especially devastating to know ya're worthless from the one whom ya regard as important.
It is excruciating when the strings of cruel words were being thrown at ya.
It is double da pain if those came out from someone whom ya treasure.
Can anyone tell me, is there such cruel person?
Is it true one takes kindness as weakness?
This is called love!
Friday, August 10, 2007
He doesnt want me to feel a class different from Don. Her beau got her a LV bag to pamper her and he got me a Gucci bag to lavish on me. This is called love.Feeling appreciated of what he has done, I got him a N95 knowing he has been eyeing since eons. This is called love.I felt abit unbalanced over the recent issues that hit us. Ma doubts hit him with surprise yet he answered calmly that sends assurance to me. This is called love.He sent an apology text for talkin to me in a crude way and spurs me on to build our trust from now on. This is called love.See! Im really easy to pacify. With all these little actions, it's sufficient to make me a happy woman!
All bad things come to an end
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
Da week passed with a breeze. That's because Im filled with lotsa issues to handle. Ma horoscope describes me as a sharing person, someone who shares others' problems and regards them as own. I thought it's really this case.
D's mum was admitted to hosp since last Saturday. She has a very rare disease. I could feel da ache when D broke down almost immediately upon hearing the news. I visited her everyday until she's discharged this evening. I swear da past 5 days were long and dreadful, waiting for da results of the tests to be out.
Bad news come in a bundle. D's family has other issues coming to him before he could think of a solution for the issue mentioned above.
Don told me she has some physical problems these days and Im kinda worried. I just hope it's not UTI.
Things will not remain pessimistic forever.
Saturday, August 04, 2007
I've been outta virtual world for eons that I've lost touch with many. This period, Im enclosed, building up walls with da rest and living with a partner. So, I thought ma charm is slipping away from me. I was quite surprised Im still much sought after. *chuckle* This time, erase the explicit conversation but only sweet compliments. Been ages since I feel appreciated and being complimented is definately sweet. Im still an attractive individual in some way in some others' eyes yes?
Sometimes, it just need magical moments to light up ya days. Forget about da ones who failed ya.
let it go
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Few days ago Don's beau brought her to a high end boutique. She was all flustered and made a call to me and Shella fer suggestions. Later, her beau bought her a classic LV bag which I fell in love immediately. He was sweet enough to cause great envy. Enough to stir da mix emotions within me. Something is just beta left unsaid.
Yet again, have reached to this junction where seperation seems to be da best solution. 2 choices were thrown to me and none sounds reasonable to me. From then, I knew the purpose of da solutions given, the 3rd solution was hidden, that is to leave quietly. Since the day I was humiliated, I've made up ma mind to leave. I took da next day to really think what do I want from it. Certain point of the day, I grew especially quiet and trashy. I've wanted to be strong and I've realized it's as hard as kicking away a bad habit. It grew with me, and became part of ma life, something that I can't depart as easy as how I put it. Every details re-enacted in ma mind from da start to da calling of da end. Da day took da longest time to end but ended nevertheless. So the world does not stop for once for one. Life still goes on and yes, bad habits are hard to kick but it will some day.
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
Several things ya might not know...
I have no idea what home means to everyone. To me, it means shelter and everything that reminds me of warmth and loving. Frustration and unhappiness deters me from coming home. Reason is simple, I dun wan da only place that is woes-free to be polluted with ma troubled mind. Home will then become da same place like anywhere else at da end of da day. Today, something strucked me and I have no wish to mention further. Despite the point I made earlier, I yearn for home very badly. Comin back to the familiar place where no emotional luggages would be. I yearn for ma mum's cheerful smile as she greets me whenever im home. Ma mind was brightened up for a moment. Instead of warm ambience in da house, air of emptiness filled da whole house when I got home. Ha.. I then laugh at ma own folly.
rottencabbage.
The one your momma
always warns you about.