Better off alone. It makes things easier, alot easier. Im asking too much and being too demanding from time to time. Makes one hard to compromise. As trashy as it is, perhaps Im not ready. Maybe from the start that is.

Good times end ages ago, mundaneness sets in. Fights and disagreement follow next. Endless it is, makes me ponder over the choice I've made to Don months ago. I may be a wussy, not being able to withstand the cons of a relationship yet keep asking for the pros. I may be selfish, like he always say, not being able to stand in his position and think at times. I may be senseless, to sprout words that pricks unknowingly. But he didnt realized, I said that with intentions to spike knowing this deteriorate da situation. I want to be noticed, I need to be assured. Sitting on da edge and risk falling is simply intolerable. I used to have no qualms in handling such and now I failed badly. Perhaps Im just not ready. Maybe from the start that is.

P/S: Last night, I had a silly fall in ma bedroom. Da slip was harsh, and ma right elbow landed on da floor first. Resulted in hurt elbow. I think, that has somehow got to do with ma recent weight. Clumsiness comes along when ya've over dosage of food and get heavier. Damn! Ma butt was aching after late realization. Im sucha hopeless pathetic.