I have tried to ignite da relationship between us when dismay were being sounded out.
I gave in and took ma mind in ya stand.
I feel guilty and feel uneasy when I heard how shattered ya are.
I wanted so much to salvageda situation and I have done.
I have not achieved anything for ya steered.
Ya've steered and so do I.
It's right, because ya dun live for me, for us.
It's not an obligation, it's not a must.
I could be easily replaced in ya life for ya have good friends all around.
And ya never short of any.
I should be contented with da past years.
Da amount of joy and surprises in ma life.
Yes, things will never be the same again.


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I had a very huge argument with D on Thurs. I mentioned da break up. I was not doing it on impulse. I was not throwin tantrum either. I meant it. He came over, despite his pleads, I rejected him coldly. Ma then concrete heart tells me I cant afford to be hurt. He pleaded and pleaded and I relented. Everything was resolved. I see his drastic changes that he vouched with his minium trust in me that it's gonna be long.