I realized patience is slipping off from me. Constant giving is making it this way. It's never ending and never will be appreciated. Strings of promises from his mouth, constant changes he vowed to make died halfway while trying to deliver to ma way. Fear crawled in as time passed, creep is telling me im losing out in this game. I gotta see it and have to learn. A gf of mine told me to let it go if thing is so hard to be kept this way. I needa get it off ma back or else i'll be entangled and be strained. Few moments with him beg to differ, for he gives me sweet times too. Perhaps i havent learnt, learn about commitments learn about responsibilties. He never belongs to me. Like an intimate stranger. Maybe I dun needa anybody.

"Treat limit like a hour glass, when it finished flowing downwards, just turn it around and continue with things you are doing.'- Ripped this from Dick's blog, I've learnt something new. Limit can be changed and raise to high level, i agree. No pain, no gain. I'll give maself some time to think about it after da urgent issues are over and done with.

On a lighter note, everything is more or less organized fer the celebration. It is inevitable to have certain issues against the flow. Just like how the 'My Sweet Sixteenth' show in MTV, I can still do with it.

Put everything aside, I havent been addressing this prob from ma mind. Now that it seems smooth on da surface, I guess I shall put it on hold first.