Apparently every fashion student's life is like a mad rush with me included. Tmr would be a official date for assessment and yes, long break after that. The thought of it makes me salivating over those promised overseas trips with mates. Ohh.. heavenly thoughts make me just wanna kick ma werk aside and continue dreamin about it
Loathe/love this period. I get showered with lotsa concern and attention from ma family. They tend to give in alot for me, treat me with especially good attitude and save da best food fer me. Mum and Donnie girl especially. Treat me with much kindness that seldom see otherwise. *smirk* Mum cant remember ma school time table till date despite im already finishin ma 2nd year in 2 days time! On the other hand, sickening pimples keep popping without hesitation and ma temperamental cranky mind has been arrowing everyone. Mad rushes cause bad hair, bad image and bad bad bad breathe. (Due to heat, wahaha.. I dun have bad breathe larh)
To sum up, everything is worthy for. These month seems to pass faster without a blink. Sometime soon, one of ma girlfriend is coming back from London. I needa get back to finish the undone issues too.
I have tried to ignite da relationship between us when dismay were being sounded out.
I gave in and took ma mind in ya stand.
I feel guilty and feel uneasy when I heard how shattered ya are.
I wanted so much to salvageda situation and I have done.
I have not achieved anything for ya steered.
Ya've steered and so do I.
It's right, because ya dun live for me, for us.
It's not an obligation, it's not a must.
I could be easily replaced in ya life for ya have good friends all around.
And ya never short of any.
I should be contented with da past years.
Da amount of joy and surprises in ma life.
Yes, things will never be the same again.
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I had a very huge argument with D on Thurs. I mentioned da break up. I was not doing it on impulse. I was not throwin tantrum either. I meant it. He came over, despite his pleads, I rejected him coldly. Ma then concrete heart tells me I cant afford to be hurt. He pleaded and pleaded and I relented. Everything was resolved. I see his drastic changes that he vouched with his minium trust in me that it's gonna be long.
Saturday, March 10, 2007
I realized da game of mahjong is always interesting if D is around. I have neva lost in the game so far when we pair up. He is ma lucky star perhaps.
I almost got to be reassessed because of ma attendance. Due to ma conduct and grades in school and a letter of appeal letter, I was being spared from paying a hefty sum of money for reassessmen . Ahhhh...assessment is on the following tue. Completed da minor modules, left with da TW's.
Everything is worth for
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Our birthday was a blast, well at least i think so. Lol. I really appreciate those mates that turned up for Don's and ma day. For those who's unable to, I understand it's a monday and assessement time. They sent regards nevertheless. Im especially thankful to few important people who make everything possible and smoothly before and after da party. First one would be JX, knowing we have not ordered a cake, he bout us an Angie the Choice cake. A extremely cute and gorgeous one to suit our theme. He too paid fer our buffet spread and that's a bomb alright? He's sucha considerate one.
' theme cake'
Indonesian buffet spread
Tank you. 2nd and 3rd ones, Jo rushed down from 'ipoh' and reached around 3 plus with Seng babe who rushed down from 'KL'. Haha... Jo even brought down Dee's lovely present for us. A plate of peach crumble which I was busily advertising. Jo and Seng babe helped out alot and is considered one of the hosts. Lotsa memorable pictures were taken ba both of them. *feeling so touched already*
With Alvin
Gina and Uncle hang
Aznie and Sofian
Aunt Sharon and Uncle Tony
Seng babe
Also, afraid that da buffet spread is too miserable, mum suggested to add 2 more dishes and extra utensils and cutleries. Who else would do that except da dear mum of mine? *teary eyes* With da help of Seng babe, we took loads of pictures while having the dinner.
Gina and husband with bday gurls
Gene's mates
hot mama with aunt Sharon
Gorging food before da guests arrived
NAFA fashion mates, cool people!
Alroy and Feryn
Then again...
One of da hunk, Joe
Two bday gurls
Shimmy the diamond
The 5 most bitchiest pple
We then gathered everyone for the cake cutting.
Happy Family Portrait
2 stars
ma dearest, dearest
Seth the hunk
With Sexaye lad
Don and her beau, gene
3 Hunks
AAstar colleagues
Apart from da 'thanksgiving speech', I needa talk about da pressents received. Im too lazy to gather all da pressies on hand and snap a pic but yes. We received alot of things both Don and I've been wanting to get yet procrastinating and loads of Ang Pows. We received $900 bucks each okay?
Intimate stranger
Sunday, March 04, 2007
I realized patience is slipping off from me. Constant giving is making it this way. It's never ending and never will be appreciated. Strings of promises from his mouth, constant changes he vowed to make died halfway while trying to deliver to ma way. Fear crawled in as time passed, creep is telling me im losing out in this game. I gotta see it and have to learn. A gf of mine told me to let it go if thing is so hard to be kept this way. I needa get it off ma back or else i'll be entangled and be strained. Few moments with him beg to differ, for he gives me sweet times too. Perhaps i havent learnt, learn about commitments learn about responsibilties. He never belongs to me. Like an intimate stranger. Maybe I dun needa anybody.
"Treat limit like a hour glass, when it finished flowing downwards, just turn it around and continue with things you are doing.'- Ripped this from Dick's blog, I've learnt something new. Limit can be changed and raise to high level, i agree. No pain, no gain. I'll give maself some time to think about it after da urgent issues are over and done with.
On a lighter note, everything is more or less organized fer the celebration. It is inevitable to have certain issues against the flow. Just like how the 'My Sweet Sixteenth' show in MTV, I can still do with it.
Put everything aside, I havent been addressing this prob from ma mind. Now that it seems smooth on da surface, I guess I shall put it on hold first.
sunshine after da rain
Friday, March 02, 2007
Finally for so long, it is sun's turn to greet ma Friday morning. It was a lovely morning which i hope to sink into ma sleep for abit longer. It's is assessment period again. As this period of time lurks in, ma body hasnt been da most attentive and robust one. Just yesterday, I experienced instant gush of short breathe and ma vision dropped from where i was seated in Eugene's class. Perhaps fatigue has already taken over ma mind. I puked and feeling alot beta afterward.
This time, Im experiencing a whole new level of exhaustion. I was up till wee hour last night. We disagreed and being really defensive. We held on to our stands firmly. We rebuked. We didnt want to deflat our pride bubble that caused so much argument. Everything was fine after da hang up howeva not resolved.
I hope da woes and unduly worries would go like da rain and da joy and good moments embrace us like da sunshine.
rottencabbage.
The one your momma
always warns you about.
Indonesian buffet spread
Gina and Uncle hang
Aznie and Sofian
Seng babe
Also, afraid that da buffet spread is too miserable, mum suggested to add 2 more dishes and extra utensils and cutleries. Who else would do that except da dear mum of mine? *teary eyes* With da help of Seng babe, we took loads of pictures while having the dinner.
Gene's mates
hot mama with aunt Sharon
Gorging food before da guests arrived
NAFA fashion mates, cool people!
Alroy and Feryn
One of da hunk, Joe
Two bday gurls
Shimmy the diamond
The 5 most bitchiest pple
We then gathered everyone for the cake cutting.
2 stars
ma dearest, dearest
AAstar colleagues 
