I have decided to keep ma tresses for as long as i can tolerate the mess above ma temples. Because, I realised its ability to make me look demure and mum seems to like ma present image.
This Friday of mine had been a tipsy toppy curvy upsy downy one. Full of unexpected surprises, shocks and dismays.
Upon reachin school, I received a call. Over the phone, I heard worried Shella telling me she lost her cardholder with all da important cards in it. She was cryin frantically by the time i had ma last sip of coffee with ma cute ex lecturer, Ivan. After much assurance from her, i then proceeded to class and received another shock from her. So I offered to go down to Tiong Bahru to meet up with her and to replace her worries to calmness.
We sat in this Mac to exchange our juicy gossips over fries and drinks. Of course, nothin pleasing butta we had a great time doing what gurls do best. Followed...
SANTA CLAUS SHOWERED LUCK ON MA DAD. He strucked jackpot. Not many could have done it in a lifetime and he did it! I couldnt believe ma ears when I heard the news from Don over the phone. I was exhilarated and almost gave a loud shout out to the whole Orchard Road to share da joy with me. Mum is generous enough to share da blessing with us. I was being asked to town to meet them out fer good lunch at, Ambush. We were strolling about and managed to get a shirt from Pull and Bear. Mum got Don and I a smiliar design wallet from Gucci. A wretch deserves this yes?
Unfortunately, ma closest kin, Don was announced single today. She was caught red handed with her heinous act. Most commonly and yet again, an act of breaking da trust. I was implicated to da domestic fight no matter how much I tried to be neutral. Im not going revealin da juicy details, she dun need publicity here. Anyhow, let's give her a warm welcome to a short stay in our cosy singlehood society.
Im too caught up with sucha emotion roller coaster ride. Therefore, im closing today as soon as im starting work, and work beta not give me any more hair raising ride. I appreciate that.
-Trust could be easily crumbled in a wink of eye without using much effort.
camwhore?
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
I wasted ma off day at home, and being desperate to do everything and anything, i resorted to photography with Don. *smirk*
I get frustrated easily these days when things are not up to ma demand. Da anticipated O' December beta be a good and a well deserved one.
New dress!
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Ma mum bought me a new dress! Da best part is we, three could fit in! Nevermind the facial expression, it's da dress ya should look at!
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Was at Vivo with Jo on Saturday. Strong vibe exuded from Zouk Out. Dined at alfresco area. Raindrops on our head. Laughed throughout. Shopped with hurt leg. Intended movie went busted. Like her, im feeling vacant within. Everyone leaves us and it's understandable there's no gatherin that lasts forever. The feeling was strong especially there was just the both of us and she felt it stronger.
Sunday's good. Seth fixed breakfast and mum brewed coffee. Her absence made me go alil quieter thus, duller.
Few more weeks to school break again. Sch has started since four weeks ago and assignments have yet to take off. Im still lazing around in the midst of the pool of crowd and get lost in it as well as maself. I have no headstart for da assignments but i've scheduled my coming sch break and stretched to its limit. Proposal's ready except the stamp of approval. A mixture of anxiety and eagerness is overpowering.
At times, rain can be nice. Gives ya a reason to cry in the rain to wash out the vulnerability. Like ya, the sky is shedding tears to ya woes.
Friday, December 08, 2006
I tore all da extension out yesterday and almost half of ma real lashes being pulled out. I wasnt at ma tip toe condition yesterday plus the fact of not feelin least confident. (yes! im all for synthetic beauty, and im artificial) Don had to put up with ma ma drama and oh-so-low self esteem. I yakked bout it da whole noon and decided to go fer a hair cut. I thought it was a glimpse of hope to turn ma day beta but otherwise. Lastly, ma day was finally salvaged when i met up with Kinki with Don at Suntec. I managed to get Jx a pair of Onitsuka Tiger sneakers fer his birthday thou and finally met up with Jo and sis. That was Thursday.
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Does ma name goes like Fre Convenient Tiew Ying Ying and convenient is ma middle name?! Spare me this c'moooon! Why is it me who ya call when ya have no idea where to to acquire ya leggings and white dress fer occassion?! Why do ya have to make ma days just as worse when ya're striked with blues?! Why do ya gotta be so scheming with lies that easily be seen through and dun bother to fix up another lies? And why do i relent each time when ya calls coming hot on ma way? I have had enough of ya this time. Do i have to swipe ya ass clean fer ya when ya're done with da loo?! Do I gotta spoon feed ya when ya both hands doin manicure?! Im blowing ya away from ma phone list, and dun squirm back!
Aiyah.. i think im still not crude enough. How?
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
I went to do lash extension on last friday. I was pleased with da results even it's shorter than da usual falsie. I brought Don to do it on Mon before school. Went to visit Jess and Jannon.
Look at the sweet little thing lying in da sweet surrender. I was totally immersed with this gush of maternal instinct instantly. Jess was describing how difficult her labour was, butta it was all worthwhile. She was full of pride when talkin bout her lil love.
Sunday, December 03, 2006
These years i have been learning do things independently and it's not easy for me. Im blessed with one lovely soul since da day i was born and we are glued together, since then i have never experienced loneliness. Loneliness is ma greatest weak point, push me to a lonely exile and i'll raise ma white flag. I feel threatened wheneva she is not beside me, even a short bus trip or a 10 mins walk in solitude would take ma life away. As years fly by, we have different routes, different choices, no matter how indispensible she is, she has to leave under circumstances of life. I learnt to take bus alone, dine alone and socialise alone. Im still daunted and feel petrified by da BIG word till date. No amount of friends would fill that emptiness within.
Talkin bout this, i have been socializing generously recently. Da emptiness grows and gets more overwhelming as i talk to more people. At a point of time, i was totally engulfed. This led me realised, im probably not within ma comfort zone anymore, i feel shakened. I have no idea where im heading to, what i want. This is pretty scary to think of.
And talking bout meeting people, da major minus point would be ME waiting for YOU. Ya have no idea how it irks me because i HATE to be a lonesome soul wandering about while waiting. This is enough for me to get ya blacklisted in ma life fer leaving me in a state of seclusion. Da 2nd minus would be, someone who yakks like ya've given only a min to talk bout ya whole life to me. I tend to withdraw maself and only listens to ya while ma mind strays other place because im not granted a chance to talk. I would be isloated. Ya force me to scratch if im a cat. That defeats my purpose of asking ya out when im feeling bored.
Too much of digression. So I say, changes is hard but acceptance is harder to crack. Changes can be enforced, while da act of assenting or believing engages ya willingness in ya mindset.
C'mon and give me an orgasmic massage on ma both shoulder blades, bcos i have been fighting against the ruthless LONE DEVIL and against maself. Dun I deserve that?
Jannon Keh Jia en?
Sunday, December 03, 2006
Da baby came with a BOOM! Shockin us all when Jess's unexpected msg came on Sat morning. She gave birth to a sweet darling gurl who would soon be a gorgeous lady like herself. Awwh. Jess was thoughtful enough to send an mms picture over this morning to share da joy. Im so eager to pay the mother and da newborn a visit as soon!
Saturday, December 02, 2006
Ma baby~
Ah Dick
A closer one
Im suffering from sinus after Zouk last night. Late night syndrome again. Im a sick soul, anyone wants to bail me out for Sat?
rottencabbage.
The one your momma
always warns you about.
Jo and I
Ah Dick and I
Again, Ah dick and I
Jo with ma daisy and Ah Seng
I've been shrunk!
Nonsensical shot 1
Nonsensical shot 2
Nonsensical shot 3
Jo looks extremely small here
Blood brothers?
or happy couple?
another shot of us
Haikal and I
Slurps
Bobby and I
She looked at hers and i look at mine
Erwan sweetheart
Gorgeous man wanted
2 beauties with 2 daisies
"Hua1 chi1 ya2 tao4 mei4'
Sophisticated Don
Cleopatra and Donnie gurl
The three precious pearls
Jo said they posed like 'lovegety'
Mother hen and 2 chicks
Seth looks like ma big bro
Three definately makes a big diff
I wasted ma off day at home, and being desperate to do everything and anything, i resorted to photography with Don. *smirk*
I went to do lash extension on last friday. I was pleased with da results even it's shorter than da usual falsie. I brought Don to do it on Mon before school. Went to visit Jess and Jannon.
Ma baby~
Ah Dick
A closer one
