I couldnt comprehend what ya've done sometimes, Let alone to agree with it. There are too many things ya would prefer to leave it unsaid or unexplained. Ya once gave me ya best assurance. Nothing in this world would strain our relationship ya claimed. To believe that ma position ya heart would never be threatened. I believed it all. A pity, words are only words, they are not enough to sustain ma trust. For the actions ya've done, proven otherwise. This is highly destructive to us. And to me, nothing less than a vital blow.

When was our last good time of laughing? When was our last sharing of thoughts? When was our last hangout without his interference?

Watching as his existance has succeeded in alienating my position. I cant help but to feel a tinge of disappointment. I was crushed. I would have blamed him for the 911 incident or even the tragic deaths of Tsunami's victims if im given the chance to. Because to me, he is as close as commiting such unpardonable heinous mistakes.

We're are each other's neccessity to the existence. Indispensable, i say. Unfortunately, this has caused our trust, our relationship, our love to strain. And i know this is the last thing we want it to happen.

Pleasing both parties is a hard chore. Being a middle person is never easy. I understand. Everyone of us is being selfish here and not able to empathise with other's stand. Wanting the best for one self.

We failed to see we've to accustomed to this inevitable changes of us sooner or later. Im still learning the rope. Learning to love ya, and to love ya dog. I'll get used to it in no time. Like ya, we are new to this change. Pardon me for ranting. Ma mind was in turmoil and I had a hard time keep it to maself. So I gotta let it out.

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Im havin afternoon class tmr. Never been beta. I need time to adjust maself back to fit in. Im looking forward to it yet too lazy for it.