I hide Jo's new hairdo somewhere in between the pics. She looks da sweetest with this since i knew her yet she begs to differ. Don and i did camwhored abit today, and mumsy was jealous and demand to be in the pics too. She was complaining she's all dolled up fer date and it's a waste not to snap here yadda yadda. So i used this chance to have a pic with her.
School today was alright, had a replacement class with Eugene at 230. Took a bus with mumsy this afternoon, it was still scorching hot, it rained hysterically when upon alighting. Another weird weather.
As Im typing this entry, Haikal and Erwan are at my place with intention of borrowing ma wardrobe and wigs. Here's da peek-a-boo for ya, haikal lookin hot and slutty~
"u have very sensual type of features..
ur small eyes play a niche"
Someone da above mentioned to me today. I had neva once appreciates ma set of window of soul ya call it. I must say, i pondered over the decision to have ma eyes enlarged and later forsake da idea afterall. Because after late realization, i gotta appreciate what im blessed with first before other to see it in me. Hell to this someone, i bet he must have a degree in flattery to shower compliments on me frivolously. And he continues..
"ur usage of wrds "GLITTER " just like dat
u r hot nt becos of the pics u posted or shared..
u r hot becos of ur intelligence to see thru wat is human being abt..
U r wanted becos of ur sensitivity of awareness when u read and anaylse my word with full bowl of sincerity "
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I had overwhelming comments from ma concern mates fer ma 'time for change', much appreciated. The thought of changing baffles me too and i hope it lasts. Getting new people into ma life should be an easy task, opening up is not. I have been too used of not sharing and it seems even harder. Come what may.
Anyway, I have Jo's new hairdo pictures on hand. Promised pics would be up, of course with me beside. *evil laugh
time for a change
Friday, November 24, 2006
F: Will there be a day of ya shattering ma heart?
E:Yes, because i want many of ya heart.
F:In this case, ya gonna build ya happiness on one's devastation?
E:No, for im gonna repay yours with ma heart.
At times, i feel vulnerable and the need to be wanted ba someone. To be able to put ma arrogance, ma pride and alot more aside. I need someone who calls da shots, be assertive and voice out his dismay if I have done things overboard at times. To soothe me down when im feeling uptight and telling me everything is alright. Hushes sweet nothings to me when im feelin all fragile and weak. Hugs me tight when im feeling insecure and allow me to feel warm. I want him to introduce me into his life with much pleasure instead of feeling intruded. Challenge ma perceptions, ma guts and ma most inner self. I want someone who has the drive and courage to explore every possibilities with me without feeling intimidated.
I had been making alot of major and minor decisions in the past relationship. Now, i wish something for a change. I see the need of introducing someone special in ma life. I wouldnt know how long ma search gonna be, butta im ready.
x'mas preparation
Thursday, November 23, 2006
As X'mas is here around the corner, the 'fantastic four' has decided that we are gonna make it BIG and MEMORABLE this year. Monday itself, the four of us met up at Holland Wee fer a discussion. Instead of much anticipated presents this year, we gonna do it with surprise shots.
So we settled down at Starbucks for a cuppa coffee with our discussion. To be on da safe side, we've decided to note down everyone's sizes. From the most outers to the intimate inners. I swear, Seng got the ultimate last laugh. For he gets to know our secrets.
Everyone gotta pen down his/her own size. Jo was da sneaky one thou. Wrote XXXXXXXXL for her tops. What da heck? She even wrote down her wish list for da present. Jo! We were saying we are giving out surprises this year. Ya gonna risk of not getting the desired present from us!
The whole session was like passing secrets around from ears to ears. The feeling is not good i swear. I was all itched up deep within, i wish i could have a share of knowing what's going on. I hate surprises!
This is how we Jo and Seng discussed bout Don's present which would passed it over to me.
I love X'mas even thou im not a Christian. Because i can still blend into their important date to share the joy with them. I want turkey this year!
uglified
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Pictures above were taken on WED. I had a very horrendous SAT but i woulnt go into details. So I took some silly shots with ma cam to have a laugh maself. Anyway, Don was saying I have been puttin her ugly ones up, therefore im doing it on maself and that's fair! The uglified photos are meant to make ma day but to no avail. Hero Jo and Seng without Don managed to save ma day like da powerpuff girls in da lata part of da day thou.
Friday, November 17, 2006
Time to bring the ugly pictures post down ya eye level abit before pricking ya eyes too much.
Monsoon's here to greet everyone's head and injects almost greyish mood whenever raindrops keep falling on ya head. It makes ma journey to anywhere a little bit tougher and longer. Nothing's able to remedy the situation yet. Yes, I have immense problem with that, do ya? I don't know if it's a fantastic idea or not, but I wanna dance in da rain with wildest actions and ya gasp with hilaration. Not with da dire consequences of becoming a sick chick after that.
It has never occurred to me of the people who dislike me in school or anywhere. I mean, nothing new because ya can't possibly please everyone with da ultimate decision or words outta ya mouth. Im sure, everyone agrees with me. To my dismay, a classmate isnt pleased with me in the inside yet appear to get along fine with me on the outside. I knew it 3 days ago where the disliking took place since months before. Ma greatest shock was, she did something scheming to get back to me. To think i even doubted maself and believed her. We were once on fairly good term. So much for treating everyone with ma earnest heart and extend ma helping hand when in need. I couldnt care less this time for ma conscience is with me.On the other hand, i have better bond with other classmates. That's ma only solace to my bruised and shattered soul.
Ma mind is feeling unsettled and always in jittery. What exactly is happening? Or something explosive is going to take place soon?
Sunday, November 12, 2006
Sunday was perked up with a real good deal. Credit goes to Jowie Lok. Was eating ma $1 packet of nasi lemak and i received a shock of da day. It was a photo taken years ago. Not long after, a string of old photos were being sent over through msn. I almost choked with da rice i had in ma mouth lar.
At that tender age of ours, we were not able to appreciate make ups and thin brows. But we still think we are cool and original individuals. With da supa short hair cut we had, which easily mislead others think we are some butches. We laughed heartedly nevertheless.
I begin to ponder, why mama likes to keep the old photos and indulge in reminiscence? For a good laugh sometimes? Thinking bout that... maybe i should post some really ugly pictures up to expand ma lungs over the stress period.
Saturday, November 11, 2006
Thursday, after the night lesson with TTP, our lecturer, Jo and I met up with Don and Ah Dick at Clementi. We've arranged a K session together and before that, we got our dinner fixed at a usual coffeeshop. I cant remember when was the last gathering among us four. Because we were so caught up with our stuffs. It was a jovial gathering after so long. Da session lasted till 2am and we head home with a car stained with birdshit. It's always the case.
Friday was a long and dreadful day. To start off with a pair of tired and half shutted eyes to school. Red cardigans matched with the red shoes werent helping either. After ma lunch at home, decided to hit da sack and was hindered ba an irritating pest's call. Shrugs! I gave up the thought of cat napping and wasted ma whole noon doing nothin. While on da other hand, i was introduced to some troubles unknowingly. Calm and quiet in ma room like a warm hut. Raging of anger and raising of issues infront ma bedroom door. It continued like how anyone anticipated it to be until the night crawled in. She was battling all these while, and causing sucha big commotion whereby ma parent stepped in to give her 2 cents worth of thoughts. I was in a position of not being able to move ma butt but desperately and hopin someone would bail me out. Met up with another troubled soul for a cup of coffee. Though he seemed all hyped and active, i know it has caused a tremendous pain within him. He concealed so well because he wants neither one of us to feel dejected. i feel for the ones who were having their problems last night and empathise with them. It was like a big gatherin of woels and unhappiness. Jo and I, both within da singlehood margin were implicated in the headache issues too. Of course, we are willing to rent them our shoulders and ears over some booze and side dishes too. Most willing to! We just wanna make sure they're alright.
no,i'll not crumble
Thursday, November 09, 2006
MeiMei with Daincy
MeiMei and I
Not everything would be in ma favour. I understand that. There was a time, i had troubles coping with this fact. Thus, i hated going to school for sometimes. Not now anymore. For i gotta find other alternatives for maself. Make best with what i've. I'm gonna be the dark horse, amaze ya with ma ability, to let ya realised it's ya loss anyway. I'm really to embrace it and not gonna be defeated this time.
Anyway, no school on every Wed. I was out with Mejess to town. We'd underestimated our road-idiot-brains. We pratically used 105 mins to get to town. Dun ask how many trains we'd boarded, ya just wouldnt believe it. Anyway, seeing her again after so long was splendid. Da usual smile on her face brightened me instantly when i walked into the train. We spent alot of time eating lunch, whole full course lunch i tell ya. Jo joined us empty stomach after her class. So we went to eat again and shopped alil. Jason came to join us empty stomach too. We ended our night at Newton Market. Saw Perlini's Silver's staffs, ma old friends there. They commented i've changed alot, to the better of course. To da extreme of spreading ma changes, Ashley texted Kinki sayin, "I saw YingYing, she becum very pretty now... liao..." Wahaha.. tank you thank you. How would i know? Well.. Kinki texted me and tell that. That's the problem working in female environment. Rumours/Comments/News spread like wild fire. I experienced it and it's as bad as the haze.
Somethings i bought yesterday
The red shoes
Ma school bag
If ya have no idea who's Mejess, she's on da right
Ma ripper specs
Vintage collection
Datsboourriiit
rottencabbage.
The one your momma
always warns you about.
These pics are nothing related to the title anyhow. Lookin at ma bombastic hair silhouette, im itchin fer a hair cut. Ma fringe is long to da extent of lying flat on ma forehead and causing alot of outbreak there despite how religiously ma skin care regime is. Deamnnn! Gonna snip it off either tmr before sch or Fri after sch... and Don has to go with me.
Jo Fre and Seng
ahem..Maself
Look at his cheeky smile
Jo Fre
we were doing this
and this
and she wanted in
she complained too far
so we snapped closer
MeiMei with Daincy
MeiMei and I
The red shoes
Ma school bag
Ma ripper specs
Vintage collection
