I cant blame maself fer thinking this way. I have the benefit of doubts here. Knowing him fer less than a month has already flipped me out. Dry. A cynic ba nature who believes that only selfishness motivates human actions and who disbelieves in or minimizes selfless acts or disinterested points of view. I just cant find a reason why is he so persistent. I made up indecent lies like im a lesbian yadda yadda and he is not daunted ba that? I have been very aloof to him and da liking fer me just get stronger? I got ma mind fried to think of every possible action to pissed him off and shoo him off. Apparently i have failed. This is very atrocious i thought but i couldnt care more. He just dun get it. Trust me, i totally know da feeling of dejection. It is undeniably intolerable. I dun need him to yank at me bcos HE. HAS. A CHOICE. YOU HEAR? I dun understand why i always need to sound like a robot when talkin to him.

I skipped school today. 2nd time in da week. not very proud of it thou. Sum might be unhappy with this. Even i haf thousands of reasons to back me up but i know it is not helpin.